In the end, it’s always the choices we make and why we made them.

Would you rather die or kill? I’d rather die. 

Lord, please help me to give up all my pride, all things that make me important and wanted and profitable. Help me to surrender all myself to You and to Love You blindly.

May I be an instrument of Your Great Love and Mercy, O Lord. Amen.

My evening prayer.

Our Father, Who art in Heaven, Holy be Thy Name. Thy Kingdom come, Thy Will be done, on earth as it is in Heaven. Give us this day, our Daily Bread, and forgive us our trespasses, as we forgive those who trespass against us. And lead us not into temptation but deliver us from evil. Amen.

Hail Mary, Full of Grace, the Lord is with you. Blessed are you among women and blessed is the fruit of thy womb Jesus. Holy Mary, mother of God, please pray for us sinners, now and at the hour of our death. Amen.

Hail Mary, Full of Grace, the Lord is with you. Blessed are you among women and blessed is the fruit of thy womb Jesus. Holy Mary, mother of God, please pray for us sinners, now and at the hour of our death. Amen.

Hail Mary, Full of Grace, the Lord is with you. Blessed are you among women and blessed is the fruit of thy womb Jesus. Holy Mary, mother of God, please pray for us sinners, now and at the hour of our death. Amen.

Glory be to the Father, and to the Son and to the Holy Spirit. As it was in the beginning, is now and will be forever. Amen.

Oh my Jesus, forgive us our sins, save us from the fires of hell and lead all souls to Heaven, give us Healing and Peace, especially those who most need Your Mercy.

St. John the Baptist, St. John, St. Joseph, St. Michael the Archangel, Blessed Apostles Peter and Paul, all ye Holy Angels and Saints and Martyrs in Heaven- Padre Pio, St. Therese of the Child Jesus, Mother Teresa of Calcutta- Mama Mary, the Immaculate Conception, please pray for the Healing of each one of us, the we may feel and understand God’s love for us and for all humanity that we in turn be able to Love Him through loving His children, as He Loves us. That we may be able to give Him all our hearts, all our minds, and all our strengths. I pray for my family, for our relatives, and all the families in the world, for the Catholic Church, all the people who have been part of my heart and life, 이 family, the broken, the lost, the hungry and those who starve themselves, the thirsty and those who thirst themselves, those who have no shelter and roof and those who choose not to have a shelter and a roof, those who don’t have anything to wear and those who wear clothes that are inappropriate and disrespectful to their own bodies, those who are in their deathbed and the sick and those who self-destruct, and those who are in prison and those who imprison themselves with their desires and wants and possesions. Please, bring us all to Jesus. Lead us all to the path of the cross, so we could follow Christ and attain Eternal Life. May God’s mercy and Love be known and felt through me. Amen. Amen. Amen.

St. Michael the Archangel, defend us in battle, be our shield against the wickedness and snares of the devil. May God rebuke him we humbly pray, and do thou Prince of the Heavenly Host, by the Divine Power of God, crush into hell satan and all his legions, minions, and all his works, seeking the death of our souls. Amen.

Goodnight, Lord. Please wake us up tomorrow at the time You would want us to

You’re beautiful and I love you.

I have a highschool friend. When we went to college, as we were intimidated by the college life, we drifted apart from each other. But we kept in touch every now and then.

Then suddenly, she just stops contacting us. There were three of us. She doesn’t text us, she doesn’t message us, nothing. At first we thought she was just keeping up with school work, but then 2 months with nothing made us worry. So we started asking around, even our old classmates. And we found nothing. Just a few other questions and rumors born from scanty evidences.

When she finally contacted us, we found out she went to Singapore. She told us she had a “psychological” problem and had to go there to get a break from everything and to receive treatment. She had dysthymia.

Dysthymia is a chronic mood disorder which falls under depression, although milder than major depressive order*. She is depressed. I don’t know when it started, and how long it had been. She was right, we hardly notice it- she’s like me, she smiles a lot, laughs a lot. I don’t even know why. I don’t know the reason she became like that. And I was not being supportive. I’ve always judged people too much. I’ve always thought that people make their problem big, eventhough it’s not. 

You see, I’m an over-critical girl. I am so harsh when it comes to judging people. I give praise when and where it is due- and sometimes too little. It didn’t occur to me that I may be hurting people like my friend. I may be hurting her by being over-critical when she is trying so hard to fit in, to somewhat be somehow “beautiful”, “accepted”. All I was thinking was, they should get over it if my statements hurt them- it’s the truth. Well, it’s not like that. 

I love my friend so much. And now, I want to tell her that she’s beautiful, that I accept her, that I love her. But I can’t. She hasn’t been contacting us lately again.

I want to say sorry for everything I’ve put her through.

For every time that I didn’t tell her she’s beautiful. She’s beautiful because she’s made by God, and she’s loved by God and she’s more beautiful than the stars that shine above but can never feel the hurt and pain that comes with living and loving. My friend is very very beautiful.

For everytime that I didn’t tell her I love her. I love her because I realized that me being happy- it would never suffice. I realized that when others are happy- when they can feel God’s love through me- then it would make me truly happy. I love her.

Lord, let me not forget to tremble. - Tremble, Nichole Nordeman

“This is My commandment, that you love one another, just as I have Loved you.” -John 15:12

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Mercy on us.

We all are victims of self-preservation- we are just not conscious of it. It fills everything we do. We don’t intervene, we don’t act, we don’t speak out, we don’t speak up- because we’re too afraid- afraid that we might get hurt, that we might not be accepted by “society”, that our friends will desert us, that our time may be wasted because there is no profit to be gained.

WE ARE AFRAID TO DO GOOD. But you know what I learned last Wednesday? Self-preservation is bereft of MERCY. When we preserve ourselves- we become MERCILESS. An old man told me, “the human mind cannot fully grasp the breadth of mercilessness- but we can use it to describe something or someone.”

How do we define the mercilessness of a person who has exploited and stole the innocence of children?  We cannot. But we can say, “MERCILESS!”

Those who have demoralized the Temple of the Holy Spirit- the human body- MERCILESS!

Those who kill their very own children, just so they could live a “better” life- MERCILESS!

Those who let the lost stay lost, and not guide them to the right path- MERCILESS!

Those who do not know what color to wear for the day, when a lot of peole don’t even have the basic necessities- MERCILESS!

Sadly, we have become merciless, because of self-preservation. Not only to other people, but even in our families.

The right path is the cross. That is why, WE ARE SAVED BECAUSE OF GOD’S MERCY AND GREAT LOVE FOR US.

God did not remain God, clothed in His Glory and Honor. He became like us, human.. dust. Just so we would be saved from our sins. God is full of mercy and forgiveness.

The crucifixion of Jesus Christ is the ultimate image of the mercilessness of human beings and the MERCIFULNESS OF GOD.

Let us all be merciful, as God is to us. Us who committed a lot of sins, ommitted a lot of holy acts and speeches, us who are weak, us who are poor in spirit, us who are prisoners of our own desires and wants and possessions, us who are DUST.

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Thomas answered and said to Him, “my LORD and my God!” -John 20:28

The parting words of a mother.

“Put your hand in His [Jesus’] hand, and walk alone with Him. Walk ahead, because if you look back you will go back.” -parting words from the mother of Gonxha Agnes Bojaxhiu, known as Mother Teresa of Calcutta

I remembered this because I just watched Heartbreak Library, another Korean film, where the leading man and woman cannot get over their past loves. 

We all know love is beautiful- it is the most beautiful thing in the world. But it is not enough to see the beauty, we have to understand it too. To know its depth and height- to know, if it really is beautiful, and how can we become beautiful, as such.

Lord, please help me to Love You, in the simple things that I do.

고마워요 나 사랑해저써  ♥

I thank my God upon every remembrance of you. -Ph 1:3

I’ve always loved the starry sky. The starry night sky. Maybe it’s the wind. Maybe it’s the feeling of eternity welcoming me. Maybe it somehow feels like… home. The feeling of God’s Glorious Love for me and for all humanity. The feeling of everything- everything- everyone has been through for Love- for God. 

One day, I hope to go to a high place at night, gaze at the evening sky and see God’s face. But it would be better that I see the face of Christ Jesus on everyone around me.

Lord, please lead your servant and take my humble sacrifice- of all of my heart, all of my understanding, and all of my strength.

Jesus, please be my Everything. I offer myself to you, that I may no longer live, but You in me.

For those who yearn to touch the intangible night sky
And hold close to eager hearts its caressing eternity
Of beaded jewels that sparkle like tears from the purest soul
And of hazy swirls of white that portrays innocence and tranquility

For those who long to kiss its lips of blueberry shade
And be close to the God, Who, from nothing, this wonder, He has made

04.28.07
09:28AM

“There are so many religions and each one has its different ways of following God. I follow Christ: 

Jesus is my God, Jesus is my Spouse, Jesus is my Life, Jesus is my only Love, Jesus is my All in All;

Jesus is my Everything.” - Mother Teresa of Calcutta