I have a highschool friend. When we went to college, as we were intimidated by the college life, we drifted apart from each other. But we kept in touch every now and then.
Then suddenly, she just stops contacting us. There were three of us. She doesn’t text us, she doesn’t message us, nothing. At first we thought she was just keeping up with school work, but then 2 months with nothing made us worry. So we started asking around, even our old classmates. And we found nothing. Just a few other questions and rumors born from scanty evidences.
When she finally contacted us, we found out she went to Singapore. She told us she had a “psychological” problem and had to go there to get a break from everything and to receive treatment. She had dysthymia.
Dysthymia is a chronic mood disorder which falls under depression, although milder than major depressive order*. She is depressed. I don’t know when it started, and how long it had been. She was right, we hardly notice it- she’s like me, she smiles a lot, laughs a lot. I don’t even know why. I don’t know the reason she became like that. And I was not being supportive. I’ve always judged people too much. I’ve always thought that people make their problem big, eventhough it’s not.
You see, I’m an over-critical girl. I am so harsh when it comes to judging people. I give praise when and where it is due- and sometimes too little. It didn’t occur to me that I may be hurting people like my friend. I may be hurting her by being over-critical when she is trying so hard to fit in, to somewhat be somehow “beautiful”, “accepted”. All I was thinking was, they should get over it if my statements hurt them- it’s the truth. Well, it’s not like that.
I love my friend so much. And now, I want to tell her that she’s beautiful, that I accept her, that I love her. But I can’t. She hasn’t been contacting us lately again.
I want to say sorry for everything I’ve put her through.
For every time that I didn’t tell her she’s beautiful. She’s beautiful because she’s made by God, and she’s loved by God and she’s more beautiful than the stars that shine above but can never feel the hurt and pain that comes with living and loving. My friend is very very beautiful.
For everytime that I didn’t tell her I love her. I love her because I realized that me being happy- it would never suffice. I realized that when others are happy- when they can feel God’s love through me- then it would make me truly happy. I love her.
Lord, let me not forget to tremble. - Tremble, Nichole Nordeman
“This is My commandment, that you love one another, just as I have Loved you.” -John 15:12
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Hail Mary, full of grace, the Lord is with you! Blessed are you among women, and blessed is the fruit of your womb, Jesus. Holy Mary, Mother of God, please pray for us sinners, now and at the hour of our death. Amen+
O Jesus, through the Immaculate Heart of Mary, I offer You my prayers, works, joys and sufferings, my every word, thought, and deed, my mind, my heart, my strength, my soul, my will, my freedom, my time, my life and my whole being today and throughout all my life- for love of Mama Mary, the Virgin Mother of God, for Love of You, O Jesus, for the salvation of souls, for the conversion of sinners, and in reparation for the sins committed against the Immaculate Heart of Mary and Your Sacred Heart, O Jesus.
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Deep humility, lively faith,
Blind obedience, unceasing prayer,
Constant self-denial, surpassing purity,
Ardent love, heroic patience,
Angelic kindness, and heavenly wisdom.
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O Jesus, inflame my heart with love for You! That my spirit may not grow weary amidst the storms, the sufferings and the trials. You see how weak I am, Love can do all. (St. Faustina)
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O Most Holy Trinity, I adore Thee! My God, my God, I love Thee in the Most Blessed Sacrament!
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PRAY THE ROSARY EVERY DAY OF YOUR LIFE.
"O my God, I believe, I adore, I hope and I love Thee. I ask pardon for those who do not believe, do not adore, do not hope and do not love Thee."
"Most Holy Trinity, Father, Son and Holy Spirit, I adore Thee profoundly. I offer Thee the most precious Body, Blood, Soul and Divinity of Jesus Christ, present in all the Tabernacles of the world, in reparation for the outrages, sacrileges and indifferences whereby He is offended. And through the infinite merits of His most Sacred Heart and the Immaculate Heart of Mary, I beg of Thee the conversion of poor sinners.”
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Jesus, You are Life indeed. WIthout You, Life has no meaning… no purpose.
Totus Tuus, Mama Mary. Totus Tuus ego sum, et omnia mea tua sunt.
“You ask me a method of attaining perfection. I know of love - and only love. Love can do all things.” - St Therese of Lisieux
“Why do we nourish our pride and exalt ourselves? Have we not always failed in our resolutions and when we criticize others, we fail to see ourselves? Let us then ask God to grant us humility, for it is always Him Who never fails us.”
“Instruct me, O Lord, My God, Sweetest Desire and Love of my soul, and help me persevere, in humility, obedience, mercy, charity, and all virtues through which I will become pleasing to You.”
“But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” -2 Cor 12:9
“The Lord is close to the brokenhearted, He saves those whose spirit is crushed. Let us NEVER LOSE HOPE.”
“..the Glory of God on the Face of Christ! Ah! How Lovely our God Is!”
“Amen, amen, I say to you, unless a grain of wheat falls to the ground and dies, it remains just a grain of wheat; but if it dies, it produces much fruit” -John 12:24
How blessed we are to be able to say the Name of Jesus, Our Lord!
“The deeper a soul has fallen into sin, the more it is bound down by the powers of Hell…” -St. Alphonsus
“I don’t want to be a saint by halves, I’m not afraid to suffer for You. I fear only one thing; to keep my own will; so take it, for ‘I choose all’ that You will.” -St. Therese of the Child Jesus
“I am nothing. He is all. I do nothing of my own. He does it.I am God’s pencil. A tiny bit of pencil with which He writes what He likes. God writes through us, and however imperfect instruments we may be,
He writes beautifully.” -Mother Teresa
Make me a servant, humble and meek. Lord let me lift up those who are weak; and may the prayers of my heart always be: make me a servant today.
Domine, non sum dignus. Lord, I am not worthy.
I promised to bear all the pain for you, so I’m bearing it Mama. This hurt, this is all for you. I don’t know how it’s gonna connect but from now on, whatever pain or suffering I’m going through, I’ll offer it all to you. Totus Tuus! I love you.
“I feel that religion with its precepts is not something we can live without, but rather it is the real comfort, the real
strength in life and the only safe way in every circumstance, even the most painful ones of life.” -Alessandro Serenelli
“In the end, my Immaculate Heart will triumph.” -Our Lady of Fatima
