“Write, my daughter, that I am Mercy itself for the contrite soul. A soul’s greatest wretchedness does not enkindle Me with wrath; but rather, My Heart is moved towards it with great mercy.”
“My daughter, write down these words: All those souls who will glorify My mercy and spread its worship, encouraging others to trust in My mercy, will not experience terror at the hour of death. My mercy will shield them in that final battle… My daughter, encourage souls to say the chaplet which I have given to you. It pleases Me to grant everything they ask of Me by saying the chaplet. When hardened sinners say it, I will fill their souls with peace, and the hour of their death will be a happy one.”
“As I write these words, I hear the cry of Satan: “She’s writing everything, she’s writing everything, and because of this we are losing so much! Do not write about the goodness of God; He is just!” And howling with fury, he vanished.”
(Divine Mercy in my soul, Diary of the Servant of God, Sister Faustina Kowalska)
Jesus, Goodness Itself! I have no doubts anymore! You have expelled them! I trust in You Jesus! In Your Most Merciful Heart!
JESUS, KING OF MERCY, I TRUST IN YOU!
There is this large group of different “religious” movements growing here in the Philippines (and has apparently flourished in other parts of the world) which uses the Name of Jesus Christ. And yet, when you look at their religion- its interiors, first of all, what is it all about?
USING THE NAME OF JESUS IN VAIN.
It is changing- “restructuring” the REAL ESSENCE of Christianity. Reformatting the boundless depth and height of the religion Jesus Christ established to fit the modern man.
Oh no, mortifications are not needed. We’re saved by grace already. Jesus undertook for Himself all that should be undertaken by us.
Did not Jesus say, “UNLESS THIS GRAIN OF WHEAT FALLS INTO THE GROUND AND DIES, IT REMAINS ALONE, BUT IF IT DIES, IT BEARS MUCH FRUIT.”
Then He said,
It is easier for a camel to go through the eye of a needle than for a rich man to enter the kingdom of God. (Mark 10:25)
And what is it that separates a PROTESTANT (They may say they are “born- again” or “Christians” after being dipped in the pool, but they are PROTESTANTS- they shoud know that they protested against the TEACHINGS OF JESUS CHRIST.) from a REAL CHRISTIAN?
Jesus said, “COME, FOLLOW ME.”
He did not say, “Make sure to read the Book (Bible)!” Because there was NO BIBLE THEN! The Bible was written by the apostles! And even then, not all can be written! “Jesus also did many other things. If they were all written down, I suppose the whole world could not contain the books that would be written.” -John 21:25
What separates a FALSE Christian from a REAL follower of Christ then is that, the TRUE Christian follows Christ. How? By renouncing everything. By letting our Heavenly Father’s will be done to us rather than our own will.
Do not go bashing our priests then, FALSE followers of Christ! Renounce everything first, then we shall see if you do not realize your own stupidity.
BUT, I am not finished.
A true follower of Christ has the Love Christ has for His Blessed Mother, Mary, the Theotokos, the Mother of God.
Ah, Mama Mary, gladly and lovingly will I prostrate myself at thy feet in front of all these people and say that it is YOU who saved me from the clutches of Satan! YOU! For so much that I attribute all to You, so much the more will You attribute EVERYTHING to JESUS.
Oh Mystical City of God, House of Gold, Ark of the Covenant, Gate of Heaven, Morning Star!
Who will be bewildered by this statement rather than be inflamed with the Holy Spirit for love of you, Dearest, Purest Mother?
By honoring you, would I be dishonoring Jesus? Are you Jesus’ rival? Are you not the one who first followed and first died to yourself, the one who first conformed your will- your everything- to the will of God? Was it not you, who said, “Behold the hand maid of the Lord, be it done to me according to Thy word.”?
How would someone who loved God- who loved Jesus- this much lead someone away from Him?
We are a wretched people, we love out of NEED. And yet by GRACE, by UNIQUE GRACE bestowed ONLY on the Blessed Virgin Mary, she loved as much as God was willing to be loved by any other human being.
Was it not in your womb that God made flesh desired to be hidden, to be imprisoned for 9 months? Oh Help of Christians, help your children that you may be glorified in us and Jesus may be glorified in You!
Hail Holy Queen, Mother of Mercy! Hail, our life, our sweetness and our hope! To thee do we cry poor banished children of Eve, to you do we send up our sighs, mournings and weeping in this valley of tears. Turn then, O Most gracious advocate, thine eyes of mercy toward us, that after this, our exile, show unto us the Blessed Fruit of Thy Womb, Jesus!
O Clement, O Loving, O Sweet Virgin Mary! Pray for us O holy Mother of God, that we be made worthy of the promises of Christ!
Stay with me, Lord, for it is necessary to have You present so that I do not forget You. You know how easily I abandon You.
Stay with me, Lord, because I am weak and I need Your strength, that I may not fall so often.
Stay with me, Lord, for You are my life and without You I am without fervor.
Stay with me, Lord, for You are my light and without You I am in darkness.
Stay with me, Lord, to show me Your will.
Stay with me, Lord, so that I hear Your voice and follow You.
Stay with me, Lord, for I desire to love You very much and alway be in Your company.
Stay with me, Lord, if You wish me to be faithful to You.
Stay with me, Lord, as poor as my soul is I want it to be a place of consolation for You, a nest of Love.
Stay with me, Jesus, for it is getting late and the day is coming to a close and life passes, death, judgment and eternity approaches. It is necessary to renew my strenth, so that I will not stop along the way and for that, I need You. It is getting late and death approaches, I fear the darkness, the temptations, the dryness, the cross, the sorrows. O how I need You, my Jesus, in this night of exile!
Stay with me tonight, Jesus, in life with all its dangers, I need You.
Let me recognize You as Your disciples did at the breaking of the bread, so that the Eucharistic Communion be the Light which disperses the darkness, the force which sustains me, the unique joy of my heart.
Stay with me, Lord, because at the hour of my death, I want to remain united to You, if not by Communion, at least by grace and love.
Stay with me, Lord, for it is You alone I look for, Your Love, Your Grace, Your Will, Your Heart, Your Spirit, because I love You and ask no other reward but to love You more and more.
With a firm love, I will love You with all my heart while on earth and continue to love You perfectly during all eternity. Amen.
—————————————————————-
If we only knew how God regards this Sacrifice, we would risk our lives to be present at a single Mass.
-St. Pio of Pietrelcina
O Jesus, I know not how to Love as Thee, But please, teach me how. I beg of Thee.
————
Ave Maria, gratia plena Dominus tecum, Benedictatu in mulie ribus et benedictus fructus ventris tui Jesu.
Sancta Maria, Mater Dei, ora pronobis pecatoribus, nunc et in hora mortis nostrae. Amen +
Mary, the Mother of Jesus, well knew it would be by her Son’s death that redemption would have to be accomplished, yet she too wept and suffered immensely!
If our Lord shows Himself to you, give thanks; and if He hides, do likewise. All this is love’s game. In her kindness may the Virgin Mary continue to gain for you from our Lord the strength to bear without flinching the many proofs of love He shows you. My wish is that you may come to die on the cross with Him and may cry out in union with Him: «It is finished».
May our Mother Mary transform all the sufferings of your life into joy.
-Saint [Padre] Pio de Pietrelcina (1887-1968), Capuchin
♥
Hail Mary, full of grace, the Lord is with you. Blessed are you among women and blessed is the fruit of your womb, Jesus + Holy Mary, Mother of God, please pray for us sinners now and at the hour of our death. Amen +
♥♥
은총이 가득하신 마리아님, 기뻐하소서! 주님께서 함께 계시니 여인종에 복되시며 태중의 이들 예수님 또한 복뒤시나이다 + 천주의 성모 마리아님, 이제와 저희죽을 때에 저희 죄인을 위하여 빌어주소서. 아멘 +
♥♥♥
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, does not boast, it is not proud.
It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.
Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.
Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.
Love never fails, never ends.
And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is LOVE.
-1Corinthians13:1-13
Saint Thomas Aquinas (1225-1274), Dominican theologian, Doctor of the Church
Prayers
O Jesus, Eternal Truth, in Your Divine Rays, all the so-called truths of this world burns and turn to ashes fit only to be thrown and buried.
… and there at the foot of the Cross stand Mary, His Mother whom He gave to us to be our Mother; and John, His beloved apostle; and Mary Magdalene, forgiven for she has loved much.
Innocence, Penitence and Priesthood.
The three kinds of souls always to be found at the foot of the Cross.
———————————————
Oh Mother, how great my soul rejoices to know that you are your children’s Perpetual Help! How Great our God is! That He gave us such a Lovely Mother, as holy and perfect as He was pleased to make her be!
GLORIA PATRI, ET FILIO, ET SPIRITUI SANCTO, SICUT ERAT IN PRINCIPIUM, ET NUNC, ET IN SAECULA SAECOLORUM AMEN!
“So Jesus called them and spoke to them in parables: How can satan drive out satan? If a kingdom is divided against itself, that kingdom cannot stand. If a house is divided against itself, that house cannot stand…“-Mark 3:23-25
“I tell you the truth, all the sins and blasphemies of men will be forgiven them. But whoever blasphemes against the Holy Spirit will never be forgiven; he is guilty of an eternal sin.“ -Mark 3:28-29
—————————– + ——————————–
I have found few- no- many Catholic sites in the internet who are teaching NON-CATHOLIC DOCTRINES and are questioning the infalliability of the Pope! Imagine, questioning the infalliability of him chosen by God to succeed His chosen disciple, St. Peter! Because of this I am terribly broken-hearted at how one can look at others and see fault when he has enough faults in himself to criticize for eternity! Alas! The cunningness of the devil!
BUT I am not here to criticize these men, as I have much more fault than them, and I am sadly, at most times like them- criticizing others when I have far more faults in myself! How weak is the flesh of man! I am here to advise you to not believe everything which claims to be “Catholic” or “Christian” to be truly Catholic and Christian- but to look for signs of “authorization” which are the Nihil Obstat and the Imprimatur- works or books written by Saints are, of course, not to be questioned but only the source from where you obtained these works.
For one, this may help to detect, that when a site claims to be Catholic yet it;
Then, it is AGAINST the Catholic Church built by Jesus Christ!
Let us pray for our souls and all the souls in need of God’s Mercy!
————————————————————–
And I tell you, you are Peter (Petros), and on this rock (petra) I will build my Church, and the powers of death shall not prevail against it. I will give you the keys of the kingdom of heaven, and whatever you bind on earth shall be bound in heaven, and whatever you loose on earth shall be loosed in heaven. [Matt. 16: 18-19, RSV]
You see, there’s too much freedom in the world. Well.. let me rephrase that.
Evil came into existence because of a FREE WILL created.. AND ABUSED.
Please, let’s not abuse our free will. But rather, let’s be grateful that we are given freedom ONLY so that we are free to choose to Love our God, and serve Him alone. Let us rejoice that we have found true Love in our One and True God and be happy that we are free to become slaves of His, and this slavery is our freedom.
My intention for writing this blog is actually because of the new movie, Legion. You see Legion is very much blasphemous and quite direct in attacking the Catholic Faith and its Dogmas- my Faith to begin with. It is blasphemous because it is about God, being “frustrated” at mankind, sending demonic angels to earth to destroy it and wipe out mankind. Where it is followed by an angel- particularly the Archangel Michael- rebelling against this plan, and protecting a diner where a woman is about to give birth to a child-on December 25- who’s the only one who can save humanity. AND! Take note, it’s an out of wedlock pregnancy- meaning this particular savior- is conceived out of adultery.
Primarily, satan is seriously afraid and angry at St. Michael and Mama Mary, as we can see. And so he turns to these people who are very much willing to be manipulated by satan in disguise of money and fame, to disrespect and blaspheme the Archangel and Our Lovely Mother.
HELLO satan, I AM PERFECTLY POSSESSED BY HOLY PRIDE AT THE THOUGHT OF you VERY CONFUSED AND HUMILIATED AT WHY I KNEEL TO A LADY- OF FLESH AND BLOOD- WHENEVER I PRAY THE ROSARY, WHEN I WON’T KNEEL TO you, who is COMPOSED OF THE SAME ELEMENTS AS THE ANGELS.
WELL, LET ME CLARIFY IT TO you, THEN: you, satan, ARE REPULSIVELY UGLY.
So, going back to you, my brothers and sisters. Let’s not use our freedom to choose satan and his ugliness. Let’s all strive to be Beautiful, just as Jesus is Beautiful, and His Dear, Lovely Mother.
NO TO LEGION AND satan!
———————————————
He will raise us up to Himself and clothe us with His own Merits. I Love You Lord. Let me burn with the Fire of Your Divine Love ♥
When I woke up this morning, I found that my parents went out early to the market and my brothers still sleeping. When I entered our living room, I found it very serene, with the sunshine peeking through our windows. And suddenly I asked myself, “What should I do with my life?” I feel, it takes for us to have these serene moments to realize that we’re not doing much in life. That we’re doing very fickle things and that somehow… it feels that we’re meant to do something else, something GREAT, something IMPORTANT, ESSENTIAL. “Are the things that occupy me in my daily life that which I’m meant to do? Is that WHY I’M HERE?”
I feel that my time here is very, very much limited. I do not know how much time I have left to be able to accomplish that which I am meant to accomplish. My beloved brothers and sisters, look around you. Look inside yourself and see- all you are, all you were, all you are trying to be, all you want to be. It hurts so much that we are very, very far from the ideal person we desire to be. That we don’t have enough courage, determination, trust and faith to accomplish our mission in life.
I still do not know fully what my mission is; I am very shallow-minded and cowardly as you can see. I am very much afraid of all the suffering I have to go through, and so I am forever grateful to our One and Only God that He has given me Himself and even His mother- because without them, I would never be willing to undergo ALL THE HURT, ALL THE PAIN, ALL THE CRIPPLING SUFFERING which God wills for me to undergo, to be as pure and beautiful as how He wants me too. If it was not the will of My God, Himself, then I would be a fool to do this– to SUFFER.
You want to know why? Let me tell you a story.
There was a boy, who deeply loved a beautiful girl. But the girl turned out to be his half-sister, and was wooed by someone else. It was very hard for him. Not simply because of the girl, but because of the fact that his mother, father and grandmother have all died already. And so he is left alone, and he feels that his half-sister is all he has. And he lovee her very deeply. She loved him too– as a little brother. When he got into an accident, he found out that he has a cardiac problem. An illness which will, sooner or later, lead to his death. He kept this from his sister.
And he bore it all– ALL THE SUFFERING that comes from knowing that you’re going to die, knowing that you’re going to leave everything you have behind, especially the girl you love, ALL THE PAIN that comes with knowing that this girl is with someone else, ALL THE HEARTEACHE that comes with every WHAT IF a person can utter when everything that’s happening to him is not how he wants it to– WHAT IF she isn’t my sister? WHAT IF I didn’t have this illness? WHAT IF she loves me back as I love her and not only as a brother?
You may be crying right now. You may be hurting because of this boy. Because, you know like I do, that this boy is meant to suffer. That he is a very unlucky boy and no matter how hard we try, we cannot come up with a good solution to this COMPLICATED LIFE.
You know the first thing I thought of? IF ONLY, I COULD HUG HIM RIGHT NOW. IF ONLY I COULD TELL HIM HE’S NOT ALONE, I AM HERE AND THAT I LOVE HIM, AND HE HAS ME. I wanted to comfort him in every possible way that I could think of.
BUT I CAN’T. From my experience, I’ve learned that me comforting others, they don’t really mean so much. Sure, they’re here for now- but HOW LONG ARE THEY GOING TO BE HERE? And HOW MUCH OF THEMSELVES ARE THEY WILLING TO GIVE? HOW MUCH OF THEMSELVES CAN THEY GIVE?
NO MATTER HOW MUCH I’D WANT TO COMFORT HIM, I CANNOT PUT CLAY IN THAT HOLE IN HIS HEART.
And you know what I realized, maybe– maybe if I was able to lead him to Jesus– maybe if I was able to pray for him, to beg God to comfort this man who DID NOT KNOW that in these times of FALLING, AND HURTING, we can run to God and cry in His Everlasting Arms. We can beg Him for help, for His Immaculate Peace, for His Explanation– why do I have to go through this? Because only He has the answer. And for this I am very thankful.
Do you know why?
Because whenever I ask God “Why do I have to go through this?”, He answers,
“For Me, My child. I let you go through this for you to become who you are supposed to be– who I want you to be. For you to become as beautiful, as pure, as gentle, as sweet and as innocent as you can be. For you to be able to LOVE ME BACK as I have LOVED YOU. For Love begets Love, and only Love can suffice onto LOVE.”
And for this my happiness and the peace in my heart is so GREAT that I am able to say with St. Therese of the Child Jesus– “Everything is grace.” Because our trust in God should be absolute.
And I find that this is my mission: To suffer greatly for Him.
Thank You Lord. For Everything.
————————————————————————————–
In everything give thanks; for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus. (1Th 5:18)
He Himself has said, “I WILL NEVER DESERT YOU, NOR WILL I EVER FORSAKE YOU.” (Heb 13:5)
♥
I realized; I should be thankful for EVERYTHING I have and EVERYTHING I am.
Because these make me HUMAN. And being human means, I am loved by God.
THIS IS ALL I EVER NEEDED and ALL I WILL EVER NEED.
Most times, my heart hurts. I feel alone, far away from God, forgotten, unwanted, uncared for- I feel as though I should be doing something more. Sometimes I feel like running away. Far far away, where I can start a new life and be whoever I want to be, and have whatever I want to have. Sometimes the emotions, the wanting is so SO STRONG that I’m ready to pack my things and just leave. LEAVE EVERYTHING BEHIND.
But I am stopped in my tracks, and made to realize that- THAT IS WHAT I WANT FOR MYSELF.
This life, the one I am living now- THIS IS WHAT GOD GAVE ME. Surely, God knows what is BEST for me. And if He wants me to prove my LOVE for Him by enduring whatever I’m going through right now, I am more than willing to do so. More than willing.
Because that is, after all, our mission in life- to “ ‘Lift up your eyes and see…’ See how in my Heaven there are places empty; it is for you to fill them … each one of you is my Moses praying on the mountain (Ex 17,8f.); ask Me for laborers and I shall send them, I await only a prayer, a sigh from your heart!” (Taken from Letter 135 of Saint Therese of the Child Jesus)
Thank You, Lord. For letting me and helping me accomplish the mission You gave to me.
—————————-
“O Jesus, Unspeakable Sweetness, please turn all consolations of this world into bitterness for me.”
-Imitation of Christ, St. Thomas a Kempis
My ultimate wish is to be a CHILD OF GOD. I want to be a little, innocent, unknowing girl who reaches up for her father’s hands when she doesn’t know what to do, and who runs up to her mother’s comforting embrace when she is hurt or in terrible pain. This is ALL I WANT. THIS IS WHAT I WANT TO BE.
A little girl. With God as Her Father and Mary as her mother.
And Jesus, Her Love.
Help me, O Lord. Make me like a child, whose trust is complete in You as she doesn’t know anything about what could save her and what could truly make her happy. Thank You Lord. Thank You so much.
When I posted my blog, “Blessed are they who weep, for they shall be comforted“, I know a lot of people didn’t really understand fully the depth of this wisdom. I didn’t understand it before, too.
How do I desolate myself?
How do I forsake my life?
How do I lose my own life?
It downright sounds like suicide is the best choice. And yes, my dearest brothers and sisters. Suicide is the answer.
Know that when you really want to FOLLOW CHRIST, you must remember what He did in His Life. HE DIED. He died for both those who love Him and those who loathe Him. This is what we should all aim to do, if we want to be REAL CHRISTIANS.
We must KILL all our earthly wants and desires- ALL our pride, our greed, our gluttony, our laziness, our lust, our selfishness, our anger and our jealousy. For ALL THESE ARE WHAT ROBBED US OF OUR CHILD-LIKE INNOCENCE AND TRUST in our Father in Heaven.
So whenever we’re feeling proud, greedy, gluttonous, lazy, lusty, selfish, angry and jealous of our neighbors- let us pray that we always remember to FOLLOW CHRIST. To ABANDON OURSELVES TO HIM because WE CANNOT TAKE CARE OF IT.
PRAY. PRAY ALWAYS AND NEVER LET ONE DECISION PASS WITHOUT PRAYING FOR IT. For we are all children of God, and like children- we don’t know what is best for us. We want a lot of things that are bad for us and push ourselves and others to get these- but our parents, Papa God and Mama Mary, they know what is best for us. They even gave us their Only Beloved Son to die for even those who nailed Him to the cross.
————————————-
“Even so, however, to be clothed with Christ we must die to ourselves.” Padre Pio of Pietrelcina
“I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” Jeremiah 29:11
Commentary of the Day from DGO
For the Gospel today, September 30, 2009
Saint Ignatius Loyola (1491-1556), Founder of the Jesuits
Spiritual Exercises, 2nd.Week, 12th.Day (trans.Thomas Corbishley)
«Follow me »
The three ways of humility.
The first way of humility is necessary for salvation.
It consists in my subjecting and abasing myself as far as I can,
so that I always obey the law of God our Lord, at least to this extent:
even if men were to offer to make me Lord of the entire creation, even were
my life threatened, I should yet not think of breaking any commandment,
divine or human…
The second way of humility is more perfect than the first.
It means that I so submit myself that I neither seek nor desire to be rich rather than poor, I do not try to be well thought of rather than disregarded, I do not want to live many years rather than few,
where the service of our Lord God and my own salvation are equally
promoted…
The third way of humility is the most perfect.
Supposing that I have attained to the first two ways, and granted an equal
measure of praise and glory to God, I desire to be poor along with Christ
in poverty rather than rich, to be insulted along with Christ so grossly
insulted, rather than to be thought well of: I would rather be thought a
helpless fool for the sake of Christ who was so treated, rather than to be
thought «wise and prudent» in the world’s eyes (Mt 11,25).
—
Help me be humble, O Jesus. Help me abandon everything and trust You with my everything. You are My Everything. Help me not want nor desire anything but You.
Will it provoke a heart to sigh?
These are the last two stanzas in the poem I made. But unlike my beribboned sentences, St. Therese speaks of heart sighs in a deeper and more life-changing manner– she says;
Our vocation, yours and mine, is not to go harvesting in the fields of ripe
corn; Jesus does not say to us; “Lower your eyes, look at the fields, and
go and reap them”; our mission is still loftier. Here are Jesus’ words:
“Lift up your eyes and see …. ” See how in my Heaven there are places
empty; it is for you to fill them … each one of you is my Moses praying
on the mountain (Ex 17,8f.); ask Me for laborers and I shall send them, I
await only a prayer, a sigh from your heart!
In my smallness, mortality and worldliness, I have come to realize and embrace the fact that I am very, very, very WEAK. I cannot do anything- anything that is worth doing- with only myself. I need immense help to love God- with all my heart, mind and strength- to love myself, and to love others. And because of this I find it very, very, very hard to do “what is right”, and not to hurt Jesus. I really don’t want to hurt Him anymore- as He has comforted me in all my sadness and loneliness and emptiness- yet I have not returned that to Him yet. Because, if He does what He does because He loves me, then that is the way to LOVE SOMEBODY.
And I want to love Jesus, because Love is only sufficient unto Love- Love can only be repaid by Love.
Let us pray for all children today- and everyone who has stolen and is stealing their innocence.
If we stop and look around us- almost <b>everything</b> is commercialized- the media is everywhere- the billboards, the posters, the advertisements, the store banners- and what do they all have in common? Marketing, yes.
BUT THERE’S MORE. They are all POISONS. Poison to the mind, poison to the heart. And almost all of them shouts the message of VANITY and LUST. On one side, there is a woman wearing a skimpy suit or a bikini. On the other is a guy with no shirt on. Even on TV- especially on TV- the soap operas and the commercials- EVEN in the INTERNET- they feed their audience with messages of almost EVERY kind of sin- LUST, PRIDE, ENVY, SELFISHNESS, DISRESPECT, IMMORALITY, APATHY. And everyone can have access to all of these- even the innocent children, even us- who are not so innocent but are being made more sinful with every thought that accompanies every glance.
How long would it have to take, how many souls would have to be lost, until mankind realizes that with every upgrade of technology, with every innovation of a “product”, with every rise of a skyscraper, with every new car model, with every new thing in the market which was supposed to be for the betterment of OUR LIVES- if all these are desired in vain, if all of these are desired to profit self and ONLY ONESELF- then all these would NEVER really PROFIT us but destroy us.
Look around you. People fighting with each other because of someTHING– People with much desire to protect, preserve or acquire a non-living thing that we are willing to HATE another person.
MONEY IS NOTHING. I may be the daughter of a multi-billionaire, or I may be the daughter of a cab driver- but NO MATTER HOW MUCH MONEY I HAVE OR HOW LITTLE MONEY I HAVE if I cannot LOVE and if I AM NOT LOVED- then I will never be happy. If I never realize that I am loved- then I will die regretfully. And If I never love, if I am never able to give myself fully- after every heartbreak, after every sacrifice, after every moment that I have been humbled, or put down, no matter how hard it is or how much it hurts- and the Thing that keeps me going is my love for HIM- then I have never TRULY LIVED. And the money I have- no matter how many or little- is NOTHING because it has never and WILL NEVER be able to LOVE me.
To Love until it hurts. It sounds too much cliched- especially if the one you are loving is a mortal, imperfect being. I found it very hard to Love God- He, Who is so easy to Love; He, Who has given His Everything to me; He, Who gives me the sun, the bright clouds, and the glorious sky every morning, the loving stars, the caresses of the wind and the engulfing peace at night; He, Who has given me every breath, every smile, every laugh, every heartbeat, every tear, everything- what more if I try to Love my fellowmen- YOU WHO ARE SO HARD TO LOVE. And yet, God- no matter how imperfect we are, no matter how poor, how rich, how fashionable, how unfashionable, how beautiful, or ugly we are- He Loves us perfectly.
This is why I cannot take anymore. Because God has given me SO MUCH. MUCH MUCH MORE THAN ANYTHING- He gave me HIMSELF.
You know how hard it is to Love me? Think about your enemy, the girl you bitch-slapped last week, the nerdy guy who barely speaks, the girl who is so trying hard to fit in, your classmate who just talks about him/herself, those people who you would never be caught hanging out with- I am MUCH HARDER TO LOVE than them. But I am not suicidal, I am not miserable, I am not lonely, I am not desperate, I am not depressed, I WAS NOT, AM NOT AND WILL NEVER BE ALONE- only that I am yearning. Yearning to Love Him, the One- the Only One- Who sustained me when even dying is too glorious of a fate for me.
My desire now is to give, to share, especially to the children today- that the sun, the bright clouds, and the glorious sky every morning, the loving stars, the caresses of the wind and the engulfing peace at night- these are the things we- with everything we have earned or achieved- were never and will never be entitled to- but are given the leisure to experience. BUT MORE THAN THESE, is LOVE- because with Love, even if the sun is covered with dark clouds, or the stars forgot to love, even when the sun dies or peace failed to enamor the night- with LOVE, there will be a Sun in our sky gloriously more than ever, a Peace in our hearts engulfing our whole being and those who we Love, and Happiness- not only in our spirit, or in our soul, but in all of Eternity.
——————————————–
You know well enough that Our Lord does not look so much at the greatness of our actions, nor even at their difficulty, but at the love at which we do them.
Be not afraid to tell Jesus that you love Him; even though it be without feeling, this is the way to oblige Him to help you, and carry you like a little child too feeble to walk.
– St. Therese of Lisieux
“Put your hand in His [Jesus’] hand, and walk alone with Him. Walk ahead, because if you look back you will go back.” -parting words from the mother of Gonxha Agnes Bojaxhiu, known as Mother Teresa of Calcutta
I remembered this because I just watched Heartbreak Library, another Korean film, where the leading man and woman cannot get over their past loves.
We all know love is beautiful- it is the most beautiful thing in the world. But it is not enough to see the beauty, we have to understand it too. To know its depth and height- to know, if it really is beautiful, and how can we become beautiful, as such.
Lord, please help me to Love You, in the simple things that I do.
고마워요 나 사랑해저써 ♥